thoughts

Two

To my crush,

Where do I even begin? I guess its pretty obvious that I like you.Β But apparently I have done well enough for you to not find out about how I feel. But yeah, I like you. I don’t really know when or how it happened. It just did. I remember when I first met you. It seems like a lifetime ago.Β And maybe it was, but the memory is forever engraved in my mind.

You were one of the cool kids. Well at least that was my first impression. You had this vibe about you that just radiated “better than you”. Maybe it was because I was new and I was in unfamiliar territory but you terrified me. More so than the others you hung out with. But honestly, that just made me more interested in you. And it didn’t really help that you were also very good looking. Tall, athletic, you had it all. Maybe that is what intimidated me. You were perfect.

Fast forward to today and my impressions of you have completely changed. Years of teasing and jokes have made me see you for who you really are: a complete goofball. You make the stupidest jokes and you love making people laugh. I can’t even see you as intimidating anymore because you are the friendliest person I know. You’re still good looking, I can’t deny that. But you’re not perfect, but I guess no one is.

 

Anyways, I know I am that annoying girl that leads myself on more than you do. I sometimes imagine what it’d be like if we we’re to actually have a relationship. The adventures we’d go on, the pictures we’d take. I don’t know why I do it, but it just happens. I enjoy being around you whether we’re talking for hours or sitting in silence. I just want to know that I’ll always be there for you through the bad relationships you go through and the crazy parties you throw. If you need me I’ll beΒ a phone call away.

Have I ever told you any of this? Nope. And I probably never will. What we have now is enough for me.

So here’s to the guy that makes my heart go wild whenever I see him, the guy that I have written many poems about, the guy that makes me smile whenever I think of him. I hope you will continue to be in my life forever and always.

From the bottom of my heart,

B