love

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To my crush,

Where do I even begin? I guess its pretty obvious that I like you. But apparently I have done well enough for you to not find out about how I feel. But yeah, I like you. I don’t really know when or how it happened. It just did. I remember when I first met you. It seems like a lifetime ago. And maybe it was, but the memory is forever engraved in my mind.

You were one of the cool kids. Well at least that was my first impression. You had this vibe about you that just radiated “better than you”. Maybe it was because I was new and I was in unfamiliar territory but you terrified me. More so than the others you hung out with. But honestly, that just made me more interested in you. And it didn’t really help that you were also very good looking. Tall, athletic, you had it all. Maybe that is what intimidated me. You were perfect.

Fast forward to today and my impressions of you have completely changed. Years of teasing and jokes have made me see you for who you really are: a complete goofball. You make the stupidest jokes and you love making people laugh. I can’t even see you as intimidating anymore because you are the friendliest person I know. You’re still good looking, I can’t deny that. But you’re not perfect, but I guess no one is.

 

Anyways, I know I am that annoying girl that leads myself on more than you do. I sometimes imagine what it’d be like if we we’re to actually have a relationship. The adventures we’d go on, the pictures we’d take. I don’t know why I do it, but it just happens. I enjoy being around you whether we’re talking for hours or sitting in silence. I just want to know that I’ll always be there for you through the bad relationships you go through and the crazy parties you throw. If you need me I’ll be a phone call away.

Have I ever told you any of this? Nope. And I probably never will. What we have now is enough for me.

So here’s to the guy that makes my heart go wild whenever I see him, the guy that I have written many poems about, the guy that makes me smile whenever I think of him. I hope you will continue to be in my life forever and always.

From the bottom of my heart,

B

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College 101: Dating

Love. The word gets thrown around so easily in this day and age that at times, the word has lost a lot of the meaning it once held. However, that doesn’t mean that love doesn’t exist, it’s still there, like a needle in a haystack. All you have to do is be patient.

As a college student, I can’t pretend that I have vast experiences in love. But I do have enough to be able to compile a list of 10 things I knew about love. So here it is.

1. Don’t limit yourself

Growing up, everyone always seems to thing that they have to find ‘the one’. But from my point of view, you can’t limit your experiences to just ‘the one’.

You’ll kiss a lot of people, make a lot of mistakes, have your heart broken and break someone else’s but this is all a learning process. You will learn more about yourself, what you want and what you need.

 

2. Lust or Love?

Make sure you know the difference. Catching the eye of a hot person from across the room is like an adrenaline high like no other. But remember that attraction is deceptive. It can make you impulsive and cloud your judgment.

Lust is in the moment. Love is forever. Differentiate between the two, or it could be your undoing.

 

3. Blocking/Unfollowing exists for a reason

Breaking up is hard. Its a slow, gruelling process and that is why unfriending/unfollowing/blocking people exist. Removing people from your life isn’t immature

 

4. Listen to your family and friends

I cannot stress this enough. Your family and friends love you and just want the best for you. You won’t be able to see the disaster in front of  you when you’re being blinded by your infatuation. They shouldn’t dictate who you date, but you should take their opinions into account

 

5. Trust your instincts

You have instinct for a reason. Okay, so maybe our instincts weren’t specifically developed to pick out jerks from potential interests but they are pretty accurate. If someone gives you weird vibes (i.e makes your uncomfortable/scared) that is your instincts giving you the red flag, so you should probably leave ASAP.

 

6. Be yourself

Do not allow someone to change your personality to suit them and their needs. If they tell you to tone down certain aspects of your personality, tell them to bounce. If they ask you to wear more makeup, tell them to bounce. If they ask you to change the way you dress, tell them to bounce.

Unless a person likes you for who you are, they are not worth your time.

 

7. Dating isn’t everything

Remember that your life doesn’t revolve around dating/looking for someone to date. You have family and friends who will always be there for you, so don’t take their support for granted.

You also have education to pursue, remember that the reason you’re in college isn’t to find your Prince Charming.

 

XOXO B